Well, Vapor, that's professional. I'll assume you definitely don't have a future in being the site representative in public. Not that your friends let you make admin decisions as it is.
Get off Brian's case, he doesn't deserve that. I don't really appreciate this insinuation that I'm some manipulation mastermind. I don't recall getting anyone to do something they wouldn't have done, or even "getting my way," because if that was my goal I sure am not very good at it. I also don't want sympathy--I have empathy problems--you think I would know what sympathy was if I got it? It's difficult for you all to understand because you lack the psychiatric experience I've had my entire life, but my professional help doesn't talk to me like I'm some leech and social liability, so I'll repeat what I was told: the people you associate with don't seem very educated in what they're talking about, therefore; you'll have to forgive that the passive aggressive peanut gallery color commentary does not mean anything to me and I'll continue to follow my doctors' analysis over people younger than me who didn't have the integrity to be honest with me until it was convenient. I'm very sorry for the way I've acted while unstable, and even if I meant mean things I said in the moment, it's not how I feel when I have control. It doesn't repair the damage I do, but it's a far cry from the character assassination of "she's a user, she's poison, never trust her, everything she does is manipulative, she's a bimbo" all of which implies I enjoy it, which is ludicrous. I'm interested to know what motivated me to make everyone unhappy so I could get myself dumped en masse? I guess you saw right through my plan to uh, brainwash a discord, or something.
I'm not going to name names, but if you Aidan, and your friends think the staff is loyal and doesn't say things like "I think she's ruining her life, Ari" and saying certain things to certain people only to avoid confrontation, or gossip, maybe you should be careful what you confide in to people, because some of us can tell you what you want to hear and sell you out to another member at the same time, and we can't all have my name.
I've asked that Brian doesn't waste his breath over me, and I suppose I'll move on. Because you're right, this is bad for mental health. Mine. His. Yours. There is a lot of tension in the community and several micro schisms that didn't end just because I'm gone, and I sincerely hope getting rid of me is a good enough band-aid, and that all will be well. I will be keeping my mouth shut from this point on and will agree to get over it and to stop engaging so that the staff can run their project uninhibited by me.